Happy Valentines Day
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
yea.so.. Happy Valentines day !!! to all couples.
friends and family.
while the great crowd out there... celebrating this lovable day.
some just sobbed at home waiting to be loved.
some had even given up on love.
for me... i'm just lost. somewhere in between.
i am so dying to move on...
but its so hard with people bringing up the past to you.
its killing me... oh gawd.
so i'm taking things slowly ...
and accepting things that people are willing to give to me.
i'm just grateful with what i have...
but time is what i need for myself to get myself going strong once again,
i realised. i've never been so weak in my life.
but this was it.
its so hard for me to accept the reality.
all i want now.
is for him to know how pure my love was to him.
i know it shudnt matter anymore.
cause its over.
but it matters alot to me.
i loved all my lovers with full heart.
and i know i always will.
stil my love life is a wreck.
and its still hazy for what lies ahead for me.
but i'm just hapy that there are people ard me that loved me so.
even without me realising the inexistence of these people.
i'm lost and so confused.
i dont know whether to give my love to someone else now.
and eventually get over the other.
or wait till i'm really over the other.
then to love someone else whole heartedly.
am i that bad?
i feel so guilty.
and almost giving up on love.
if i ever do.
i'm letting someone down.
hurting him.
and i dont want to.
i still hold my head high.
covered my sorrows with smiles.
hoping miseries would just fly away.
but i'm running away from reality.
i'm just hurt...
n afraid to hurt anyone else.
i'm just lost...
n wanting to be lost alone..
i need time.
so quicker the time and let me move on.
let the man who hurt me suffer...
please...
let him have a taste of what he had made me feel.
Hurt.Pain.Suicide.
tick.tick.tick.
let my life just ends soon....
xoxo time goes by so slowly xoxo
xoxo ♥ sue:
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