heartache
Monday, November 28, 2005
i thought i was the only one.
the only one whose heart nvr changed.
stil luving him the same.
but he.
i tot he doesnt.
but just one bloody message can put a smile on my face.
*-=[b3nji]=-*jobs auto-message: sorry to let u wait again.im such a useless boyfren actually i cant tink..i cant stop missing u...i cant stop tinkin bout tt shit..hais..i reli miss those days.we can keep tokin thru the fone...slp late at nite..walk around my estate..disturb each other.T-T.i'm juz sorry u have to go thru tis shit wit me.im reli sorry T-T.i love u.
gosh. he still loves me.
i miss those words.
i miss him.
i miss those days too.
u're not useless. NO.NO.NO.
i miss u ALOT. and i cry sumtimes..
while thinking abt those shyt.
i miss everything!
i'm willing to go thru anyhtin wit u.
as long as u still love me.
i'm so scared... *u noe why*
just dun leave me now...
please T-T.
i'm making things so worst.
i tot u moved on. ahead of me.
fcuk-
how can i think that way.
like double 'L' said ; its gonna be okay
like 'Z' said ; let fate decides
like sha's said ; romeo and juliet...
wth.
its not guys.its far more worst.
its hell for me.
fcuked. i must not pro-long this pain.
i must get over it.
all i need to know is...
does he still love me like i do?
i sense the changes, but i wanna see the change in his heart.
i hope there isnt.
i love him so much
but i'm not gonna show my pain no more,
i'll be just fine pretending i'm nt.
just tell myself.
i'm a fasthealer.
strong within.
lets not cry a tear anymore.
he wudnt luv me if i shed my tears over2 again.
i really need to go away from home.
need some soul-searching.
i cud catch a movie-
i cud just take a trip to nowhere on public buses
i cud just walk2 ard town.
window-shopping.
or just.. rot at fren's place..
today must sleep outside. in the living room.
accompany my dear bro outside.
he wun let go off my hand when he sleeps.
so darn bloody pampered.
he pleads me. so i havta.
okok.enuf of me.. sobbing. and sad-ding.
promise myself a better tommorrow.
=) it aint over yet.
=) i wun end it so easily.
XoXo luving him loads. XoxO missing him more XoXo
xoxo ♥ sue:
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