Friday, September 12, 2008
have this ever occur to you before?have it?
allow me to clarify further.
knowing something now, makes you realize you wished you didn't know.
or
when someone told you something that you wish she hasn't told you.
you wish you could forget everything, every single syllable and every single word she said to you.
cause the things she said.
totally contradicts what you had believed in so far.
the things you looked up to every single day.
the person you see with your eyes with such great respect.
it changes everything.
just because.
of the thing you just knew which you wish you hadn't
i wish i could have rant it all out.
but then.
its my beliefs we're dealing about.
so i can't.
i cried to yan last night.
trying to beat around the bush, hoping he understands wad i feel.
he tried hard. he showed as though he understood.
for the fact.
i know he doesn't.
who could blame him.
i cried. i didnt tell him exactly why.
but it touches my heart that he put in effort to understand.
i felt ,everyone's of my kind, pressure.
the slacker thats main test on the corner.
the sympathy seeker.
the good for nothing white uniform pain in the ass.
one thing i unconditionally love.
this tender-loving juice pumping sweat dripping house manager.
i wont say who is who.
and i wont explain clearly.
what the hell is this girl trying to portray here.
cause. i just cant go any further.
and more.
i wish that she didnt tell her.
so that she wont tell me, about him.
urgh-
yan.. how i wish i cud tell you what is happening.
sorry by, to leave you out in this.
dussh-bag.
i wish i can forget it.
i look at him now, with disgust.
how can i ever change this mentality....
let's pray,
he is still the same old person..
18 years back.
till then.
love.
sue.
xoxo ♥ sue:
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