Wednesday, September 17, 2008
dang. its just wednesday.& i have still about 3 more months. 100-+ days.
before i am done with my sentencing in A*star.
(:
i am not feeling my best these days.
getting symptoms i may be having flue anytime now.
getting it from nizam -.-"
plus. i miss supiyanto alot lately.
like more than usual. like more than ytd and lesser than tomorrow ?
i have a bad feeling on my internship(IP)
i feel that we are making damn beladi slow process..
and at the end...our colleague done it.
and left 5% for us.
still... its 5% like 50% more.
its.. simply bozo to us.
like alien thing.
how i wish school have sent me to a company... that does something they are familiar with.
like wise, somethin i've learnt in school.
when ppl ask me.
"kao keje ape?"..."kao buat ape eh?"
erm...*cricket*cricket*
well. let me clarify.
i work in a research and development company.
a semi gov education company popularly known as a*star.
the Science quiz on TV is sponsored by this company.
A*star is a combined research party for science and IT.
so whats so difficult about this?
they are research dev.
they invent/improve/implement..quotations,processes that is new, nvr tried before
they research on something new, to improve the technology of Singapore now.
so ape yang susahnye?
the topic they required me to do..
is something the department i am working on, wasn;t even familiar with.
moreover us, interns.
so us as interns, we are here to study.
so they expect us to work on their standard (masters/degree/phds)
we feel inferior.
and we feel helpless. we dont know a single thing.
and theres no one here that can guide us through.
well there's one. but he practically does it for us.
which is...kind but again.. make us feel helpless.
the other grp of interns.
they are doing programming. in which they are good in.
and plus, they have everyday guidance from a colleague.
and they know wad they are doing cause they learn from school....
i love the ambience here.
the ppl here...are alright.
i just disappointed with myself.
&& for my FYP.
what am i suppose to tell on my presentation?
all i did was study someone elses work for my own benefit and improvise 5% of it?
ouh gawd.
i need a miracle.
S.O.S
p/s: this entry was not intentional to harm/insult any particular being or organisations.
thank you.
xoxo ♥ sue:
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