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Friday, August 01, 2008

its the weekend finally.
i wish i could wake up late ... but dad would definitely wake me up.
for family breakfast.. -.-"

anyways.
korean drama can be so addictive.
like seriously..next to series of jap animes.
i just finished with romantic korean drama(2004) named "Fullhouse"...
next would be by recommendation, a soulful drama " 1 litre of tears..."
atleast i have something to do during my spare time (=

at work today...
qian2 led me to this girl's blog...
her bf of 4 yrs died during his national service...
and even a month later.. her entries didn't fail to mention him.
i cried reading it..
its sad.. real sad...
www.charleneyl.blogspot.com
i could cry reading it again....really...

anyhoes....

god above hasn't been shining down much on my family.
i guess we have tasted greatness and now others.
we would stick together and pull this through no matter what..
i know we would.
but the fact i'm witnessing with my own two eyes...
its truly depressing...
it troubles me how others be so irresponsible while others work their arses out.
how they try to hide their pain from me.
but i could see it in their eyes.

for me.
i dont mind not doing wad i love alot.
altho it kills me deep inside.
cause i have plans.
but playing a part in building the family.
is more important.

i just need so much moral support to keep me going...
but it just wasn't there... as much as i hope it would.
if only.. if only...if only....
two words plus some additional words can keep me staring into the daze.

when time comes.
whats mine is yours, mum, dad.
i'll support you both, even if i'm on my own...
i love you. i promise! insyaallah.

i think i'll be standing on my own two feet for now.
there just isn't any right words i heard.
it only brings me down.
why? why?
isn't it obvious enough...
that...

i need you so much.

gd night.


xoxo ♥ sue:
9:50:00 PM