LIFE nvr perfect
Friday, December 01, 2006
if you say "oh... my life is so perfect"or...
"great... everything is so perfect.. oh..i love my life"
or...
"i have everything.. the 5 c's ... PERFECT!!"
or
" DARN.. i'm rich.. and i can buy anything with it.. u name it.. i buy it..."
well guess what..
you should be thankful i'm not infront of you..
cause if i am..
my shoe is so gonna end up into your mouth!!
people should stop dicking themselves...
and face reality.
life... can NEVER be perfect..
if it is indeed perfect..
honestly..
you dont have A LIFE!!
FACE IT!!
money?? rich? billionaires?? Ge-zillionaires??
happy?
maybe..maybe not..
urgh crap.. of course not.
MONEY CANT!! buy happiness.
YOU WORK>WORK> WORK!!??
fall sick?
still WORK>WORK>WORK...
will money cure your permanent sickness.
READ THIS!!
P.E.R.M.A.N.E.N.T!!! sickness
i dont think so...
when you have to go.. you gotta go..
and thats it,,
bye2...
your money goes way down the drain!?
happy??
where's your family??
erm -what..
you left them?? you dunno how they are??
crap.. come on...
you shud be happy..
having a *PERFECT* life..
well screw` YOU~~
another face up!!
MONEY wont buy a family..
well maybe.. BUT LOVES comes first!!
so -puhlease!!!
WAKE UP CALL SIR!!!
_____________________________
ok i am seriously disturbed!!!
-sorry... whoever is lost out there... -
i'm mentally and emotionally disturbed right now.
and i cant even pour out to anyone.
i stopped meeting my *psychiatrist* long time ago...
i back to the low level of strength.
agitated at small things.
and i'm tired of hearing explainations and giving explainations.
i'm tired of creating problems.. and finding solutions.
i'm only 16* ( going to 17)
he should appreciate it.
me&her , we felt the same..
you didnt really watch us grow..esp him.
she did.
if only what me&her thought is true.
say gdbye to whatever i had once with you.
i swear you'll never be forgiven.
i told that to her...
f*** to whatever thang i once have with you...
i just hope
its NOT TRUE...
she 's been carrying these burdens.
i've helped her by a quarter.
you did the minimal role of your responsibility.
and demand for the world worships.
face it.
you dont deserve it.
its crystal clear..
we looked up to her rather than anyone else.
with u, is just rank.position. respect and REALITY.
with her. love trust respect and everything ....
i'm feel so darn bad.
i'm not being what i'm expected to be.
a role model?
i'm totalley screwing my life.
and ...
i'm so tired of pretending to hold up this happy life.
since primary..
till now.
THIS TOTALLY SUCK
i kept lying.lying and lying.
why.. to avoid hurting.
why.. hurting myself and others.
i deny, i lie.. i'm unfilial!!
i gotta make a change :'(
i just got to..
i'm ought to continue to stand up for her.
one wrong move..
i wont let him off.
i'm cutting off the wrong doings.
i promised.
to be like i use to be...
i'm so sorry...
i've disappoint you.
thank you for still believing in me..
i love you.. :'(
1. cut the habits.
2. academic wise
3. character wise
4. back to my -reality-
still..
why out of the rest..
this one..
you.. wont let me..
:'(
its so... unbelievable..
i'm happy.. because of this.
and you wont let me..
please.. oh gawd. help me..
:'(
this is really disturbing me..
and i cant tell the soul.
i have to keep this..
URGH !!!!
i will prove you wrong...
whatever you say..
i'm sorry but i have to go against you...
I HATE THIS FAMILY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it may be perfect in the eyes of others..
BUT YOU KNOW WHAT!!!??
ITS NOT !!!!!
urgh!! we've been keeping this.. to ourselves.
i'm just lucky.. i got her&him.
altho she also is with us.. but she is more to his blood.
urgh!! useless!!
BIG JERK!!!!
ARGH !!!! :'(
i really cry my eyes out these days..
i'm so glad i still have someone that will never fail to make me smile..
i love him so much...
why do i have to go this dugaan...
ni lah dugaan yang paling terbesar..
akan i tanggung ini dalam diam2...
dugaan sudah pun bermula...
haiz..
i wil endure...
it will all be fine..
my love for him is too strong ..
i'm sorry...
i miss him....
i love him...
muhd sufiyan.
xoxo ♥ sue:
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