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happy.sad day

Monday, May 22, 2006

oh kaes.
hello people on earth.=)

today was urm.. very hard to say.
my saddest yet happiest day.
i think.

i got seven hours break.
and can choose not to attend morning lecture
so i got only 1 hr tutorial at 5.
missing my hubby so much.
i dont mind spending hours of nothing in tamp.
so i went to school with him.
yeay but shit happens.
and things turned out wrgly.

as sucking i am.
i cant seem to please him with a simple gesture.
i'm dumb. i'm slow.
so i know.
i suck.
haiz,
just mis-communication.
it just hurts me everytime we argued.
he pops out 'the' question.
it hurts so much.

his way of communicating was different from my ex's
honestly.
he reminds me of my dad ;p
heh*
well. its weird that when sumone i love and respects scolds me.
all i ever do was look down& kept quiet.
i was trained that way by my parents -.-' respect konon.
but if its someone my age or younger or who the fish*
that finds fault with me.
hah^ naseb ah.
sha&andrea says i'm fierce?
hah. ish takderla...
the people havent seen my 'temper' like adss do.
=) nyeh.

so.
i have no mood to go for lecture.
so i called my mu saying that i'm heading home to fix my lappie.
but then syu is already on the way,
so i go meet her under red block.
when finally he realise that i walked straight instead of the bridge.
he gave me a call
and... told me to go meet him.
yea he was furious.
and trust me. i was scared.
so i kept quiet all the way.

he asked me a very sensitive question.
and i couldnt answer straight away.
cause i couldnt control my emotions at the same time,
so i kept quiet. trying so very hard to control my emotions.
thenthen.. eeee.....kkrrkk.ya-dush.
i go off meeting ayu.
after letting out my deepest thoughts.
i walked off.crying. to meet ayu.
i wiped my tears. n acted normal infrt of ayu.
then he called me.
then i started smoking,.
then i cried.thats when ayu saw.
i told him everything in my heart&mind.
cause i've thought thoroughly.
and made my stand&decision.
its up to him.

then we met again.
i had to leave ayu fer a while.
sorry eh gerl.
so aniway.
we talked again.
this time.
i'm so tired of keeping my emotions.
so i speak up. all of it.
those werds came right from the bottom of my heart,
really.swear.
then... ee..krrrk...ya-dush
then he made his decision.
phew.i'm relieved.
thanks syg fer holding on.
so niwaes. i gave him one big hug.
then i go meet ayu again.

then i n her go back separate ways.
she work. i head home.
meet mum.
send lappie to service
then head tamp.
meet ayu again at tamp mall after her work.
when to bank.
make some new tp friends
found out he is in panjy freshie.tp.
dunnoe who is his name.
but his fren name was ...erm hafiz. ya
thanks to ayu la. we made friends.
haha, kecoh.
anyways. in the bus heading to school.
a guy like so called ask me to reserve a sit for him after i alight the bus.
was so like -.-' aniway i did la.
so he asked my name. then said.
'oh ya thanks eh fizah'
lihe apeje.

so when to nmm tutorial.
it was only like 35 mins.
we played a silly quiz.
the 'slackerz' won.
we the 'botakz' give face la.=) hehe.
we went home at 5.45,.
so after that i go meet my sayang,
damn shits. it was raining.
i was cold&having migraine.
you know why migraine.
cause PMS coming.
damn mit!!

so after that. i finally spent quality time with my syg.
went to his workplace.
then go eat.
then go slack.
then go homes.
met his old fren.funy guy.
then i saw fadhli&syafiee.
so walked with them to a.p after putting my bag back home.
so i've made my concession. yeay!

okok. now i really have to finish up my iiso assignment.
thanks to abg normano.
haha he helping me print my rubbish assignment.
so paisey.
my ink went out.
stupid printer. output device. hehe.
okok.

i'm missing my syg now.
but i dun wanna disturb him.
doing his 'artistic' project. hah.
gdluck for the presentation syg.
gdnytes everyone.
p/s ; congrats hakkim for beating the silat o-t. hah
wo caya sama lu. & cheer up.
there's other fishes out there.
and also.
p/s ; pls stop bugging me. my business is none of your freaking concern.
and erm one last
p/s ; adk wan. dont ruin yourself k.stop your liq. & smoking. you're still underage. heh. (like i'm not)
heh. but gd th

okok
hadios fer now.
i love him!!!!
i miss him!!
i know i know. vomit la if you all wnat.
but i just wanna type it out.lOUD is i can ler.
haha
okok.
hola-

<<>>
<<>> yeay!
<<>> hehe*

bueaiz. ppl. dun miss me =)
taking care people.
wo xiinag da * muacks.muacks*

,, im hafizah am..



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