a day away from misery -
Friday, December 09, 2005
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it was hell ytd.
dun wanna talk abt it.
cudnt sleep the whole night.
was i... harsh?too much?
or. i did wads right.
i duno wheres my stand now.
i dun listen to anything now.
my friends. my mind. my heart.
but it end.
only time will tell.
i wun be breaking the news.
i nvr wanted to break it.
its all up to u.
so a few dearie actually wanted to call me.
i needed sha. mas. andrea so much.
but it was sha's 1 yr ann.
mas , at gig wit rus.
andrea . flown away.
my bro wanted to call.
but he knows deep down.
fizah can handle it by herself.
thanks a million farhan *
ur tot count.
so today.
went east coast.
had a piece of my mind.
sabo* by the babes. while the dudes throw sands on me.
it was fun. i truly needed this.
i lurve them*
the babes are immature* sorry to say
so i play ball with the dudes.
haha 7 dudes. 5 babes.
the water so salty.
n thanks guys. for kip drowning me.
i didnt bring any xtra clothes.
was a last min thing.
that i decided to tag along.
so i ended borrowing a jersey n a levis boxer. haha
i was forced to wear it.
if not they're gonna throw me in the water.
wif my pretty clothes in!!!
dumbarses.
so i buried myself alive.
then. watched ppl le'pa kour
and skim.
played water polo. soccer.
then watch sunset.
it was great.
cause only me followed the guys to the furthest jetty.
while the other gerls stayed to clear their things.
set there for like 15 - 20 mins.
it was beautiful.
i nearly cried.
with my drifting away thru my miseries.
but they kept calling me to 'wake' up.
haha. memories.
" i dun understand'
' klakar ke kurang ajar'
' air pasang mane ader masin'
' too deep ; help !'
ouh yah. thanks u GUYS!! for like..
pushing me thru deep waters.
n for carrying me in the waters cause its too deep.
and i know that jersey is a 'see-thru'
i was left wit no choice !!!
fcuker .
thanks for holding on to me thru the deep waters.
imagine from 10.30 am. go east coast.
at 7+ go out from there.
i'm dark. so dark!
sun-burnt. fcuk.
so afta tat.
head to causeway point.
ate at burger king.
from 12 to 7 ppl
den end up me n psycho go home together.
live so near =)
haha.
so yea. reached home at 10+.
mum started nagging. haha
lucky she nvr realise my skin. haha.
- today washed away my everyday misery -
temporarily.
got called frm mas.
we mite be werking at C.Club
huahaha. yeay.
mite.. not yet sure -.-
haha
k. so now i'm having fever.
temp 37.6c
fuuh!
den sha2 called.
conferenced with pete*
old times. hehe
i was sad. cause i'm at home.
duh all came back to me.
so they tried making me luf.
but i'm to weak .
nvm. i'm supposed to call them back afta this,
i just havta blog.
no'ones talking to me
online.
so.. i'm gona.talk.sumwhere else.
i wanna wish IKA.
happie bday.
ur partayye was o-tay. cool.
thanks dzul* fer helding it.
i thanks the crazee bitches
sherry, nadirah n shikin.
and my beloved arseholes.
farhan.
followed by his fcuking dumbarses,
falah.shamir.hamed.taufiq.hilmi.hakkim.
sorry hakkim ; i kicked ur balls.
for like the 4th time.
plus the hari rayer.
sincerely sorry =)
XoXo wash the pain away XoXo drown in salty tears n gushing blood XoXo
- my entry is nvr complete w/o last werds -
i miss u every second.
i'm sorry.
u're forgiven,
its strange that my feelings didnt change abit
even tho.u're like this.
screaming yelling at me.
i love u the same way.
its nt an advantage to take.
its just the truth.
i'll let time . to change
wads meant to change.
but nt my feelings to u.
epohi.emesoluoytelnud.
okie.
now.
gdbye.
love ya bitches out there.
too-de-loo
o'le-vua
chao.
chingtautay.
XoxO do u love me ?? xoXo
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xoxo ♥ sue:
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