* 2nd day after hell
Saturday, November 26, 2005
i had a sleepless night last night.
slept at ard 4++ am.
i stared blankly infrt of tha com after he went off.
i off it. tried to sleep in my room.
i cant. my mind cudnt rest.
so.i watched tv. csi.
then. played playstation.
all alone in the middle of the night/ morning.
then.tried to sleep again. wit my bro.
i cried my night to sleep.
i woke my bro wit my cries.
he slept beside me n hugged me. thanks bro. *i needed tat.
finalley i managed to get a shut-eye.
its 8++ to 9. was awaken by two sotongs.*
mas n drea called my home many tymes.
but my tired mind n aching body just refuses to pick up the call.
but finally i did.
with everyone still asleep.
i woke up, get ready n left to drea's place.
wen i got there. mas n drea already noe why my long face.
the pain i'm going thru.
they had been such a deary**
they put a smile on my face for tt noon.
we watched dvds till 2.
then lazed ard in drea's room.
i got a make over.. mas artpiece
she made me look lyke a *fairy-dust*.. pretty-nice tho.
goodwork gerlfren! and thanks for the manicure too *
gosh how i wish sha was there.
i lurve u guys **
niwae. ate lunch at KFC. salad for mas *wink*
and shrooms meal for me. plus cheesefries(takeaway) for mum.
then sent mas back home.then head home . at ard 430.
mum was pretty upset due to the mess made by bro.
i was pressurized. hate home.
my migraine suddenly came back.
gosh felt like killing myself. pain*
den i checked the id. he nvr called.
ask my bro. he nvr talked. nvm.
miss him like fcuk**
nvm.nvm.forget it.
so i got a call from dad. wanting me to accompany him buy sumthin
at bedok.meeting my bro-in-law.
in the car... daughter n dad conversation. shyt**
i cudnt get out of it cuz i was the only one wit him in the car.
he can see thru me. i was sad.
he thought i had a fight with my mum.but sadly no. it was worst.
he wen on..asking me.. abt boyfriend? w/o realising it...my tears rolled.
so he obviously knew the answer..
den he wen on.. why i'm still young, already burden wif problems.
he wanted me to tell him why i was moody.
but i only reply.nvm.forget it. it's my personal problem.
den i quickly changed topic abt buying a car.
he wanted to buy a new car in malaysia.
we had a mini-kancil.in my house there.
now he wanted to buy either ;;
*Volvo
*BMW
*Mercedes
i'm like totalley into BMs.but he wanted Volvo.
why sia??! so ugly.
btw why do we need so many vehicle for wad.
we have a total of... erm ..
1. Singapore -Chevrolet car
2. Singapore- Mercedes Van
3. Singapore- Phantom bike
4.Malaysia - PeroduaKancil car
and now he wants a fifth car.
haiz. just give me the money.. so i can buy a new HP!
btw dad is hinting to me to pass me back my sec 1 phone line.
*gimme olredi dad!
haish. my mind is nvr at ease now.
tml.. dad insist me to go jb wit him and de rest.
he say he let me go hair salon n shopping to cheer me up.
thanks dad * but i'm not that kind.
but i wud take that offer thank u. i nid a hair cut.
make it a short one .
i'm seriously gonna miss him.
i doubt he feel the same. atleast not as much as me.
i felt the change.
he really try to put a smile for me.
pretend? just to make me happy?
or he is ..really happy ? got over ytd already.. so fast.
gosh. i suck at hiding my pain in love.
i dun want u to pretend. i wanna share the pain wit u.
i'm sorry.. am i making things worst ard here??
i am... fcuk*
i'm leaving strait in the morning.
dun miss me y'all.
i noe..no one will..
lets play pretend.. like i nvr existed...
XOXO this weird dreams are kiling me XOXO i luv u!!!!
xoxo ♥ sue:
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